How does he do it? How does he cause me so much pain and so much hurt? Why do I let him? Does he like me at all? Does he care? Does he really? I'm really really not sure anymore. I'm not sure if he ever has. I hate this. I hate this more than anything. But I can't talk to him. I can't talk to anyone. I don't know what to do. But I don't think brandy was a good idea.